"Mommy, is that man dead?"
Looks at man. "Noo honey, he is just really sick."
"But his mouth is open and he isn't blinking, are you sure he isn't dead?"
"Spencer, he is not dead. Your question is upsetting his friends. He is just very ill."
Spencer thinks about this, looks at the mans friends who were clearly trying not to look back at him.
"Why is his mouth open, mommy?"
The man looked as though he had a pretty severe stroke. He was fairly unresponsive except for some head jiggling. "Spencer something happened in that mans head that made his body not want to move anymore. He might get better someday if his body heals, then his mouth might close again, he might not. I do not know.
Spencer looked again and said to the friends of the man. "Can he talk?"
The younger people with the man, said "No"
I looked at Spencer and said, "It is always okie to ask people questions as long as you are nice to them. It is also okie to learn about why people are sick. Never be afraid to ask, and Never be afraid if someone looks sick.
Spencer shook his head. The younger man with the old stoke victim smiled at me. I nodded my head back to him.
I was aways afraid of people in wheel chairs because I was told to never ask about them and to just shush. I do not want my kid to be that way.
As for me, I am getting healthy slowly. The pain in my body is still in my chest and back but it is moving through different muscles. It seems to depend on which bra I wear as to which muscle will hurt. I find the whole thing odd. I can't seem to find a non hurty bra, and not wearing one hurts just as much in a different spot. I want to try to go to the gym on Tuesday while spencer is at school. I plan to try to work out for 20 minutes and see how I feel. I hope I can build my way up from 20 minutes but we shall see. Until then I have been out walking with friends, at parks, fabric stores, etc. each day to get my stamina back up.
I really want to get below 200 pounds by the end of the summer. It is a lofty goal. It means 26 pounds in 3 months but I think I can do it if I work out 2 hours per day. My hope is to run, pedal, walk, yoga, and swim my summer fun like a pro so that I do not feel like it is work. That plus limiting my pasta's and breads, and increasing my veges and fruits will help. I also need to stop the fast food and sodas that are starting to plague me again.
Being below 200 pounds would be amazing. Each pounds of extra weight is really weighing me down lately. It is time to fix it all.
My friends have been amazing to me lately. I just can't completely put into words how much I love and appreciate them. I am a very lucky person right now.